Looking back.......My Mom

She lost her mother at the age of 3, never really have been given a chance to experience a love of mother.  She had endured the wrath of a step-mother and a father that really did not care.  She was literally given away to a man 75 years older than her at the age of 13 to make a life for herself. A man that I should be calling father but not by choice.  He was an addict, an alcoholic and a womanizer.  But the man who gave my mother 5 children; 3 girls and 2 boys.  She lost three of her kids in two different incidents leaving her super-conscious of the two she was left with.  She was a mother and a father to us both.  She protected us from our father and the elements and provided us with everything and more we needed to make it through life and our education. 

She had many different roles to fill in her life. She was a sister, a daughter, a care giver, a wife, a friend, and for me, I had the blessing of being able to call her ‘Mom’. Her love was boundless and her energy unmatched. She was a source of inspiration to more people than she will ever know. She took care of my father for 20 years before he passed away patiently and with love.  The man who did her nothing but wrong.  But isn’t that what giving people do who have an abundance of unconditional love in their heart?

I can say with utmost certainty that no one in the family understood the true value of my mother.  They took her kindness and love for granted and because of her giving nature they did all they could to take advantage of this. She had an innocence that was unmatched.

The dash in between her years of life is filled with memories.  I loved, cherished and valued her.  She was and will remain my hero for life. She transitioned on February 5^th 2013.  I respected her in life and I respect her in her transition. Mom, I love you.  You have been a pillar of strength in my life and I have what I have because of you.  Thank you for giving me the privilege of experience of being your daughter and friend.  You were an awesome mom.

 

Since my mom transitioned three years ago (2013), there has not been a day that in some shape and form I have not been reminded of her. Today I was reminded of her in a big way. I was sang this song and I had to share, as she was truly the biggest blessing in my life. Many thanks to my awesome friend for bringing me this song:



Mama, thank you for who I am

Thank you for all the things I'm not

Forgive me for the words unsaid

For the times I forgot



Mama remember all my life

You showed me love, you sacrificed

Think of those young and early days

How I've changed along the way



And I know you believed

And I know you had dreams

And I'm sorry it took all this time to see

That I am where I am because of your truth

And I miss you, yeah I miss you



Mama forgive the times you cried

Forgive me for not making right

All of the storms I may have caused

And I've been wrong, Dry your eyes



Cause I know you believed

And I know you had dreams

And I'm sorry it took all this time to see

That I am where I am because of your truth

And I miss you, I miss you



Mama I hope this makes you smile

I hope you're happy with my life

At peace with every choice I made

How I've changed along the way



Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams

And I owe it all to you, Mama.






Live in Light!
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